/adv/ — GIOYC – Get It Off Your Chest

>>34623320 (OP)
bf and i havent talked since the other day, and he left me on read last night. its so over.

imma be completely honest
i dont see the point in living anymore. all of the stuff in life just seems completely pointless. im sick of all the things that society expects from you and desu i just wish that i dont wake up again

>>34623324
Based bf, it's probably your fault foid
>>34623326
If you're brown that's fine too. If you are white, do better dude

https://voca.ro/1emV7mk417TP

>>34623320 (OP)
I hate niggers
>t. black nerd

"If you get anxious, imagine them without any clothes on."

But what if they are hot? That just makes me more anxious.

>>34623320 (OP)
I have a unique and well argued empirical idea about esoteric historical cycles and I started a website to share it but it's taking a lot because I am procrastinating. I wish I had someone that helped me in any way like giving me some advice. Some friend or something.

I made my mom cry and I'm heartbroken but also she forgot I have unmedicated ADHD and many things are hard for me, I just need to send a couple emails but bureaucracy kills me inside

>>34623518
Having a mental illness or any type of medical condition is no excuse to treat innocent people or people in general like a fucking asshole or bully them.

sometimes I feel like I'm in a perpetual state of recovering from the last inconvenience

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today is my birthday

>>34623593
Happy birthday anon

>>34623575
I did no such thing
It's my inability to do things that made her cry. My own existence if you will

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>>34623600
>I just need to send a couple emails
>mom sad
I wasted over a decade of my life in that state of being. Send those emails right the fuck now. Don't rewrite them 100 times, just type some shit up and click send and see what happens. I mean right now before you reply to this post. And get help. Meds, shrink, religion, a cult, anything. And tell your mom why this is happening, don't leave her in the dark. Thank you for your attention to this matter.

>>34623612
I sent them but the bad feeling is still there. Thanks for the interest though, unfortunately I haven't had access to any kind of help this year and won't have access until August, but if I keep fucking up it will be too late by then

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>>34623594
thank you anon

>>34623593
Happy birthday lil bro

>>34623624
Good that you have sent them, have you apologised to mom? God speed anon you can fix this

>>34623636
thank you big bro

>>34623600
lol, that's entirely on her, you didn't ask for her to bring you here, you didn't ask to be born with ADHD, you didn't ask for her to get upset when you dare to show symptoms of your neurodivergence, you didn't ask for her to expect you to function like a neurotypical person
that's like making someone with down syndrome feel bad by crying in front of them because they can't drive to the doctors appointment themselves
if she can't handle having a disabled child then that's her fault, she knew that's a risk when she decided to have a baby
it's ok for her to be frustrated and exhausted from having to look after a disabled person but she has to learn how to express that in a way that doesn't put the burden on you, she can go cry to her therapist about that

>>34623650
anon you can have a good reason for being inadequate and still feel sorry for how that affects others

>>34623662
yes, but there's a difference between knowing you're a burden and someone howling right in your face about how much of a burden you are

I went to sleep mad and I woke up mad all over again. It's so cool how I meet a new "friend" of yours in VRChat who immediately says something sexual about you that you're okay with, but you get mad at me for being offended by it? And you wonder I was so upset? You know what, just keep crying to every guy you meet about us. I'm sure you'll find another boyfriend that way, just like you did when you were crying to *me* about your ex.

>>34623689
you always get what you sign up for

i can't reason with or defend myself against someone who just denies reality and changes what the rules are on a whim

>>34623713
Same feels bad man

Hard week tomorrow. Hopefully it will end well. Back to back appointments. Tuesday early afternoon my one break to take a walk and try to...sort things out. That, or be made a fool of.

>>34623320 (OP)
I hate rude people. I always treat others well, and as soon as I say the slightest silly thing, people jump on me as if it were obvious or as if I were retarded. God, it's like some people are allergic to happiness or something.

I'll see you this week, right? Things will be worked out? Even just a little? God I'm weak I know, forgive my pathetic simpering. The anger was less shameful than this.

I have never met someone who was such an evil selfish manipulator narc but is also what I think is...a good and sympathetic person. It's scary. You are abusive but I think you genuinely don't mean to be. Or am I just falling for your tricks?

Living in a 3rd world shithole and would love to complain about everything. But the more I keep scrutinizing and complaining about everything, the more I find endless of it. Perhaps it's truly just a matter of this place being so backwards primitive, that's why everything is so dysfunctional and that's it.

There's far too many - dozens - of signs and evidences pointing to you as an enemy, and I'm still placing as much of my trust in you as I can, doing what (admittedly) little I can as damage control and to defend you to them, between their threats. You carrot-and-stick me, bait always out of reach, and I'm still doing my best, despite the harm it brings me.

Wtf was that dream? And no person who may be my cousin or may be some glownigger just using their voice - not living a lie - mostly volunteering. Though the "voluntary" aspect of that - for obvious reasons to those with full context - is a matter of debate

it's over.

>>34623580
Wait until they start really messing with you.

What if I can't recover from this?

You won't want a perpetually broken angry sad scared woman.

Easy to make such declarations when you're not mired in the reality of it...it made you hate me, remember? Or did you think that was from something else, and not my broken heart and inability to heal from it

Today I woke up and felt like doing nothing, so I was scrolling on my phone for 4 hours without barely getting out of the bed. I'm also not eating that much lately. I felt anxious yesterday and since then I've been sad. I will play Rance now. I want to eat junk food, namely cream crakers and biscuits. I'm not nice today. I hate that. I was doing so nice on the last month, heck, even two weeks ago.

>>34623889
Hey

>>34623976
You're not them, I'm not interested

>>34623996
Who is them? I’m not that guy who wasn’t them and am also not them.

I’m into you despite all of your flaws. You don’t need to do anything to impress me - you’re everything I’m looking for, and you pulled me out of a bad place when I needed a helping hand, although you don’t know that yet. I want to give your story a happy ending. I’ll be waiting for you.

>>34623593
Happy birthday

I regularly waste my time on the internet posting on 4chan, instead of making progress in my life or doing anything I actually want to do.

>>34624132
When you find the motivation to better your life, you will come back here and see a post like the one you just made that reminds you to keep going. We're all gonna make it.

>>34623593
Happy birthday!

>>34624120
I did my best in giving my all and even then it wasnt enough. There is no good ending for me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVtrllgtgxs

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>>34623593
happy birthday!

I'm not reading all that, sorry. I'm going to take all the time I need to feel better. There are other people who need me who care more about what I'm doing anyway. Which is a shame, because I spent too much energy caring about what you thought.

Truly accepting I'm going to die alone. Crying myself to sleep for the past two weeks. Debating on suicide or solitude.

>>34624377
Hey me too! Solitude is more comforting albeit isolated

I HATE EVERYTHING

I wish I could just spill everything about my breakup to someone and have them care but I can’t because my ex and I share all our friends and I can’t even dump here because she posts here too :(

The convenience store pizza I bought just spurted grease on my shirt. I’m sitting in a gas station in the middle of nowhere about 14 hours from home. I’ve already seen mountains, plains, and a beautiful thunderstorm today. I’ve got my favorite tunes playing and no idea what’s ahead of me except road. I am in my happy place.

ask to come over and suck my cock again already you know you want to

>>34624447
> how do you know she posts here?

Scared. Hopeful. Mostly not. That stalemate...Are they letting you go, or are you still in chains? They give me nothing, is that intended ploy, or is it because they're conceding ?

Want to feel you at my back, arms snaked around me to shield, like you did by the water before.