have you ever been to a mental hospital? the doctor told me he wants me to be there for 10 weeks... i took risperidone for many months but psychosis still happens sometimes and i thought people are monkeys and robots who psychically attacked my soul. i feel silly talking about this because im going to talk to shrinks and say i live in a simulation and shit, its better now but im still paranoid and i dont look at people the same way, finishing college will be hard if i have these stress induced psychosis. shrink said she speculates i have schizophrenia but i need to get it diagnosed at a mental hospital. i think i want to take a different medication because this isnt working for me but i dont want to take any extreme meds with side effects because im not a danger to anyone. i dont want to take risperidone anymore, i used to take Aripiprazole but im not sure if i want to go back on it instead of risperidone and ssris like Paroxetine and Sertraline. they are going to do blood tests to check if i take the meds they give me, right? if i have to take crazy meds then im supposed to be like yep this made me feel good but it makes me sleepy, makes my stomach hurt and my dick is soft and shoots blanks and i still have negative schizo symptoms and i feel depressed and retarded BUT I CAN GO NOW?? is that how its supposed to go? im going by myself but they will do blood tests to check the meds in my bloodstream right? thats a thing they do in psychiatric hospitals? do i need to actually take them?
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Anonymous06/10/26(Wed)14:52:33
and when psychward doctor asked on my first visit what do the voices tell me i just froze up because i keep forgetting and i felt so stupid. they did say a lot of evil and upsetting shit and its like a torture but i just kinda dissociate and my memory is shit. what would you answer when a doc asks what did you hear?
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Anonymous06/10/26(Wed)15:18:40
>>42526624(OP) Tell your doctor that the side effects are too much and you want to try different meds. I tried different meds for a year before they put me on something that helps without major side effects. It doesn't even get rid of the voices, they make me not care about the voices so I can brush them off. >>42526632 >forgetting That honestly sounds like a spirit is messing with your head. If you ask me schizophrenia is simply mediumship but the patient gets confused and thinks the spirit words are their thoughts. Thats how the delusions and paranoia manifests. Spirits make you forget things by overloading other parts of your brain so you can't recall anything. I would recommend RHP style protection spells and ritual cleansing baths. If you can try to differentiate which thoughts are yours and which are from the spirit world. Ignore things coming from the bad spirits. Hopefully it will get bored and move on.
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Anonymous06/10/26(Wed)15:24:24
>>42526624(OP) >i thought people are monkeys and robots who psychically attacked my soul.
If you are not a danger to yourself or other because you are nonviolent like mlk ghandi and Jesus don't go to the hospital or take those meds. Do outpatient somewhere and take up things like meditation or yoga
>>42526624(OP) Just take 5-htp before bed and see for yourself you are not crazy. Drink green tea with it and take a vitamin B6, then go doze off. You'll get crazy hypnogogic hallucinations, voices, and sleep paralysis with demons trying to injure or have sex with your spiritual body.
>>42526624(OP) >i still have negative schizo symptoms You will have those, antipsychotics don't suppress them >do i need to actually take them? Yes. Just take them, if they have side effects tell it to the doctors. Not all meds work for everyone. >>42526632 Just say they tell you negative and hurtful things.
Psych Wards are where they (the goodest they) scout for "talent". Obviously anyone with "consciousness inclination" (not spiritual, you are NOT a spirit) is considered an invaluable asset in interdimensional warfare. You might be tested by antimedicine and sifted like wheat, but if you start to view your life like a training arc you'll one day see everyone has a place in The Only War (Dharma vs adharma)
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Anonymous06/10/26(Wed)22:21:29
>>42528477 Idk, I've literally been telling my therapist the truth about harming animals as a child, fantasizing about murder throughout my life and a bunch of related stuff that fits this criteria and he genuinely gives me a vibe of either not taking me seriously like I'm larping or just not giving a shit and bending over backwards to relate everything back to some childhood trauma even when certain things existed in me prior to experiencing any traumatic event I can remember.
Perhaps he's trying to mindrape me into acting on something?
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Anonymous06/10/26(Wed)22:26:05
>>42526624(OP) This is a computer-generated simulation but sorry, you're still mentally ill. Best of luck brother.
>>42528568 I doubt he is trying to do something malicious to you. His indifference is most likely due to him seeing your problems as normal and you seeing your normal behavior as a problem. Children do not really know right from wrong. Children have a very naive concept of causality so they can be, from a adults perspective, cruel. It is the job of adults to get the child to understand the weight of their actions. Have you ever read “Lord of the Flies”? Also fantasizing about murder is normal, they are called intrusive thoughts. Knowing them as such is the difference between a psychopath and a schizo. Choosing whether or not to act upon impulse is how a human distinguishes themselves from an animal. Pic related. It is very easy to blame all your problems on childhood trauma or heredity, get a diagnosis, and become a perpetual victim via drugs or conditioning. There is nothing wrong with asking for help, but a bit of introspection can go a long way.
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Anonymous06/11/26(Thu)03:56:16
Yea tho I walk through the shadow of the A-shau valley... I shall fear no Evil
For I ...am the baddest mutherfucker in the valley
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Anonymous06/11/26(Thu)08:30:14
>>42526743 i kinda want to get diagnosed because i cant ignore this anymore. >>42526712 but they will do blood tests and when they dont detect the meds in my blood for some reason then they will treat me like im uncooperative and im not submitting to the fuckin treatment and shit. >>42528517 >Just say they tell you negative and hurtful things. good idea dude. im not deep in this right now but trying to remember this hurts my brain >>42526712 what do you take that isnt risperidone? that shit isnt good cuh
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Anonymous06/11/26(Thu)08:30:50
>>42526624(OP) stop going to them. they are wolves pretending to be the good guys. they use people like you as an easy paycheck. they’ll milk you as long as they can get away with. you’re growing and adapting to this world of liars. ride out the storms and you’ll meet calmer waters. be strong, God has already won.
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Anonymous06/11/26(Thu)09:26:12
i want to change risperidone to Quetiapine because it doesnt give you parkinsons tremors (brain damage) and hormone problems. but im afraid they wont listen to me. i have ocd and they suspect im schizophrenic but i didnt get diagnosed yet and im kinda scared they will be weird about it Quetiapine just makes you more hungry and sleepy which is good compared to other antipsychotics >>42527927 >>42528004 >>42530606 i just want a paper that said that i tried "treatment" so i can get officially diagnosed because my psychiatrist suspects it but doesnt want to do it i think. i promise i wont let them get me guys
A former buddy of mine was a pot head and developed pretty strange behavioural patterns. Years latter he "attacked" his mother with a knife. Now he's rotting away in a "psych ward". If the "head doctor" wants to, he can keep him there indefinitely.